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Showing posts with label Journal. Show all posts

Late update and meh..


          If leaving on a jet plane was exciting, laying bed ridden for more than two months was excruciating and agonizing. It was more disturbing when the dark clouds of fact prevailed over me time and again that I am far flung from my homeland, my country and my peeps. I had no one to turn to and I had no one to share and voice out my pain to. Life in foreign soil to me was more of a distressing and disconcerting than eventful and thrilling. I lay wide-awake on my bed day and night with just pain and dissatisfaction as my friend.

The first one-month of my stay was fit, fine and healthy one but the trouble started approaching me as the second month begin to make its way. I started developing acute pain in my abdomen out of nowhere. The pain began to shoot up more and more with each passing days. Even then, I did not miss my University and job hunt. I had a belief somewhere inside me that the pain would subside someday but all my conviction derailed when the pang of pain hit me more than before. I strolled with the pain till I could hold it.

The third month and I was in bed frisking with pain. The level of my endurance could no more resist the unbearable pain. I gave up finally and made my way to the hospital. The doctor made me go through different check up like endoscopy, ultrasound, blood test, x-ray etc. Finally the doctor came up with findings that I had redundant water stashed in my stomach and that my intestine was devoured by gastro instestinal problem.  I was prescribed different medicines and I had to live under strict food control. Each day I had to consume around 6 different capsules of drugs during daytime and two injections at night. I had lost around 13 kg of weight during these three months.

Three more months passed with the medicines. These days I am feeling more comfortable than before. I am working too and finally I am relaxed to some extent.

Life in foreign is actually tough, but it gets tougher when we are not sound in wind and limb. “ Bideshma rookhko hangama paisa falcha bhanthe tara, yeha ta hangama hoina jara nai ukhelda ne bhetna garo hune rahecha”.

    Anyway, my best wishes are with all those who are out of the country. Stay safe and healthy…


© ɱɐϩτα Ͼϵϔϼα™ 2011

Thank You for Loving Me..

           Actually my blog consist of writing only. But today, I wanna  use my power of being an administrator to this blog and publish a video that has so touched my heart over the time. Through this blog, I wanna dedicate this beautiful song to the one I love, to the one I wanna spend my rest of the life  with and to the one who knows how dearly I love her. THANK YOU for every best day.

 


(Lyrics)

It's hard for me to say the things
I want to say sometimes
There's no one here but you and me
And that broken old street light
Lock the doors
We'll leave the world outside
All I've got to give to you
Are these five words tonight

[Chorus:]
Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn't see
For parting my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me

I never knew I had a dream
Until that dream was you
When I look into your eyes
The sky's a different blue
Cross my heart
I wear no disguise
If I tried, you'd make believe
That you believed my lies

[Chorus:]
Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn't see
For parting my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me

You pick me up when I fall down
You ring the bell before they count me out
If I was drowning you would part the sea
And risk your own life to rescue me

[Solo]

Lock the doors
We'll leave the world outside
All I've got to give to you
Are these five words tonight

[Chorus:]
Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn't see
You parted my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me

When I couldn't fly
Oh, you gave me wings
You parted my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me 

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Love and Peace




Tour de Chitwan.....

“The world is an open book, those who travel less; learn less”

Travelling is a great form of learning as we get to see new places, meet new people and learn about their culture and tradition. Most of all, travelling always refreshes our mind and body providing us a wonderful break from the hectic schedule of our monotonous world. Though I am not an ardent traveler, I am always up for travelling far and wide as long as time, situation and my pocket favors me.  I have been to most of the places in and around Kathmandu but travelling beside Kathmandu has been one of my fantasies; not to forget the real fantasy i.e. to travel out of Nepal itself.
This time around we opted for a week- long tour starting from Kathmandu. The tour would lead us to 1) Chitwan from Kathmandu; 2) from Chitwan to Pokhara; 3) from Pokhara to Bandipur and eventually back to Kathmandu.

With that plan on head and paper we headed to Sauraha, Chitwan at first place, early in the morning from Kathmandu. Since it was a weeklong tour and the season was winter; we stuffed our rucksack with warm and heavy clothes fearing the winter.

During the travel through highways, I came to realize how poor our roads are. The highways are in dilapidated condition. There are cracks and pot holes at every junction, the pitch can hardly be seen at some places. I felt as if the road was looking at us, begging for the repair it needed at most of the places. The government must be liable towards such a serious issue. I wonder when they would find time for such issues, besides the dirty politics they are delved in. Should not we be ashamed of our roads that lead us to the most tourist grooving parts such as Pokhara and Chitwan?

1) TO CHITWAN
After the bumpy ride of nearly 6 hours we reached Chitwan; home to varieties of wild flora, faunas and wild animals. Along the way, we were stopped at different places (I did not keep track of how many) but I know more than three places; asking for the entrance fees or say tax.  As far as I can make out, they are collecting this amount, so that the area can be kept clean, the roads be kept free of pot holes (or let’s say for a better cause). As I was inside the vehicle, I overheard them saying “hijo maile 8 hajar jamma garekoma 4 hajar dunk hane”. Though we knew where our cash would go, we paid them unhesitantly, and so have been other tourists (local and foreigners) who have been making there.

We were ushered directly to our hotel. The continuous ride was a real pain in the neck, but the beauty of Chitwan made me forget all of it in seconds and so was the case with everyone in the group.  In the evening we went for a short walk with our guide. We walked along the lush green Sauraha jungle. Our guide told us that it was just a warm up session for the safari we were going to make the next day. But the warm session was just as amazing as it could be. The biggest usp  of our warm up session was the rhino we saw that day. It was a one horned rhino. We came to know at the very time that it had a wound on its back, so it was dipped in the water to keep off the flies at bay. Here is the pics.


Da Day I Missed Da World Cup Finale 2010

The Swollen Appendix removed after Operation


11th July 2010
6 A.M.

Even though I slept late the other day, I don’t know why; but my eyes opened up as early as 6 in the morning. As I woke up, I felt a rush of cold in the atmosphere. I looked through my windows just to find out the downpour lashing hard on my window panes. I remained in my bed for a while, enjoyed the rain and again lied down on the bed for a quick and small nap. But fell fast asleep and as I woke up the next time, it was already 8 A.M.

8 A.M.

At 8 a.m. I woke up for second time on a single morning. By now the drizzle had stopped and the sun was smiling by the window. The morning seemed a perfect starter for everyone. I got out of my bed, went to the wash room, took a shower and did all that we all usually do as we get up from the sleep. I live with my brother in a small flat we have booked. My brother is a student in one of the +2 college here in Kathmandu. So, he usually wakes up by 5:30 in the morning and makes to the college. So, I morning I am all alone and I have to prepare everything by myself.  By 9 a.m., I was done with the breakfast. I even fed my two little dogs. They are more than friend to me. Both are nearly one year old and are very playful.

9 A.M
I reached my office on time as usual. I live very close to the place where I work for. So, most of the time, I turn up earlier than my other colleagues. Every day I open the office, read the newspapers, surf the net, rest for a while and wait for the friends to arrive.
I got the newspaper and headed toward my cabin. Since it was the final day of the World Cup 2010, most of the pages of the newspapers were filled with the advertisements of the World Cup projections and screenings. In this World Cup, I had been supporting Spain from the very beginning. And since Spain had reached the final, I was feeling really excited about the match that was going to take place on the very day. I along with my friends had already planned to watch this final at my place. So, I had thought it is going to be a good fun this evening. But little did I know, things gonna be totally different.

10 A.M
I seemed to have some problem in my stomach. I don’t know how but all of a sudden, I got some strange feelings and difficulty in the abdomen. I ordered for a tea with contemplation that the hot tea might make me feel better. I finished sipping the tea but the idea did not work for me. The pain in my stomach began to rise further. So, I lied down in my cabin for a while with a hope that, the pain might subside in a while. But to my utter dismay it also failed to do any tricks. The pain scaled more heights with every minute. The pain was very sharp and acute; I could feel it most affecting the right hand side of the abdomen. I conversed with my friends and made for the home to get the rest.

11 A.M
I reached my room and jumped right on the bed without wasting any time.  I tried to sleep but due to the pain, I couldn’t fall asleep. I reached for my mobile, made a call to my brother and asked him to get some pain killer tablets for me while returning back from the college.  

12:15 A.M
My brother was standing in front of me, he helped me to stand up and handed me the medicine that I had asked for. Without wasting any time, I gulped the tablets and lied down on the bed again for the rest. I closed my eyes and tried desperately harder to get some sleep. Surprisingly, I felt asleep after trying nearly half an hour. As I woke up the clock had already stricken 2 P.M.

2 P.M.
I got up and went to the wash room, got freshened up and returned back to the room. Suddenly i felt very nauseating, so I got out of the room and went to the wash room again. In a matter of second, I vomited for nearly three times. The pain in my stomach worsened up further. I had no idea of what was happening inside me. Nothing worked, so I was really tensed and so was my brother. My brother again rushed to a pharmacy nearby, consulted with the pharmacist and got me another medicine. I took it too and waited with a thought that it might work. But nothing significant happened. The pain was aggravating more and more. After nearly half an hour, I had another vomit. It was really painful and the pain inside my stomach was scaling more and more. Even then I resisted harder with a hope that the pain might fly in due course of time. In this way, I held my self till 6 P.M in the evening.

6:30 P.M.
I held the pain within me with all that I could. But things started to slip out of my hands, the pain rose much further than I could really take. It was getting difficult for me to breathe also. So, I decided to head for the hospital. With the help of my brother and my friend, I rushed to the emergency ward. There, they referred me to a doctor called Mahesh Adhikari after going through some preliminary check up. My brother and my friend filled up the form paid the charges in the mean time. The staff at the hospital told me that Dr. Mahesh would turn up by 8 P.M.

8:45 P.M.
Dr. Mahesh turned up late, really late. I could hardly hold back any pain further. I felt like I was dying from inside. At 8:45 he approached me and enquired about everything. He also carried on some preliminary checkups and instantly came up with the conclusion that I was having APPENDICITIS. He seemed to have lots of confidence and a good expertise in his field. He even did not find it necessary to have the CT.Scan; it’s usually carried out if someone is suspected to have appendicitis. He said, “We can’t waste any time”. But he told me to get the bold test and x ray done. So, I headed towards the pathology lab, where I was supposed to get the blood test and x ray.

9:45 P.M               
I was made to strip all my clothes and every accessory that I was putting on. They got me a hospital gown, which is usually offered to the patients undergoing operations. I could barely stand up, so a hospital staff helped me with the gown. In a matter of second, I got rushed to surgery ward. There, they made me to lie on a surgical bed. I moved my eyes around. There were different types of machineries placed in different places. In the same manner, I could also see various kinds of tools that are used by the doctors during surgery. The only thing I knew among them was the scalpel. There were altogether four surgeons in the surgery room. They were dressed in green gown with a mask over their mouth and nose. One of the surgeons approached me and took my left hands and feed me with the saline through my vein whereas the other strapped a blood pressure checking machinery around my right arm. Similarly the thirds surgeon gave anesthetic on my spinal cord. Within five minutes, my both legs went numb. I couldn’t feel anything below my waist. Then they told me that they are going to operate on me. This is what I know. After that, when I woke up I was in the next ward. I woke up nearly after five hours. When I woke up, my pain had gone. Even though, I could still feel the pain post surgery.

12th July 2010

7 A.M.
Eshu had come to visit me. The first thing I asked her was about the World Cup result. She told me that Spain had lead by one goal. I felt a kind of relaxation though I missed that moment.

The following week I spent all my time being on the bed in hospital.


A TRIVIA:
The appendix is a small and thin finger like pouch, attached to the large intestine; it is found on the lower right side of the abdomen. There are many theories revolving around the actual use and benefit of this organ. The real reason why it is present in our body has been under scrutiny by scientists for ages. The appendix had been considered to be a useless organ for a long time, but now various factors imply that this is an organ where good bacteria reside, to help fight against infection. The appendix seems to be an integral but unexplored part of our immune system. Other scientists believe the organ may have been of use to the early man, to digest tough leaves and barks. The appendix is made up of two types of tissues – the outside layer is lined with muscle tissue, and the inside has lymphatic tissue, which produces the antibodies. Although it is a known fact that people without an appendix are able to live just as well as others, the usefulness of the organ is still a hotly debated topic.
The location of appendix is at the beginning of the colon where the small and large intestines join; this place is very vulnerable and prone to infection. This is the area where there is a large risk of infection by foreign objects. Appendicitis is a condition that is caused when the appendix gets inflamed; it is a painful infection of the appendix. This is a medical crisis, and if treatment is not given in time it may rupture and cause a major infection; this can cause an emergency situation that might sometimes even be fatal. Appendicitis usually occurs when the appendix gets clogged by build-up of thick mucus, feces, a foreign object, or sometimes even a tumor (a rare occurrence). This obstruction causes the bacteria inside the appendix to multiply, further resulting in swelling which exerts pressure on the walls of the appendix, inducing it to burst. Finally, the appendix bursts open or perforates the abdominal region, spreading the infection. An inflamed appendix will burst open if not removed in time, leading to a dangerous condition known as “peritonitis”. When infection occurs, the walls are swollen and get filled with infectious fluid.
The pain felt during appendicitis, is not like any pain one experiences during indigestion or a usual stomach ache. It starts near the belly button, and moves lower to the right. Appendicitis occurs most commonly in people between the ages of 10 and 30, but it may happen to anyone at any given point of time. 1 out of 15 people develop appendicitis in their lifetime. The occurrence is highest among males from ages 10 to 14, and among females from ages 15 to 19. You will find that appendicitis leads to more emergency abdominal surgeries, than any other 

An info on appendix
The stitch dat i got after the operation

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