Still On

Those moments of peace,

Is feasting on me slowly.

I can’t persist on.

Nor, I can abstain from it.

Those crawling nights.

And insurmountable nights,

Does often leave me restless.

No, smart choice; But

To lose myself in the music,

And those glorious moments of togetherness.

In a far off region,

Desperate with my seclusion.

Pondering in the darkness,

Lethargic with my gloominess.

Just the stars above to guide me on

And my  destiny to slide me on.

The eluded soul;

The shredded anticipation;

The erratic directions,

And oh! Those never ending temptations.

But when I see your angelic face,

Reminded I’m; not to back off.

Energized, I get; to carry on.

May, whatever falls on,

When you’re with me,

I toss up again- screaming,

“No, I won’t give up!”

“No, I won’t give up!”

**DEDICATED TO ALL MOMS WHOSE OFFSPRINGS ARE ABROAD.

Late Update and Me II

Update 2

Been a year since i went to a complete sleeping mode from the blogging arena. It all happened because of my serious health issues. In the previous post i have explained how i was diagnosed with Gastro Intestinal Tuberculosis.To be true, it was such an awful experience but  now i am almost through to this state and i hope to get back to normalcy as soon as possible. 

     2013 is with us and i am praying for my better health in this year. 2012 was not fruitful to me. I had to suffer a lot in that year. My study, my career and all my dream had to be put to the rest because of my unstable health. I have been one year late in every hemisphere of life. So, now I am struggling hard to put everything back in the place. I don't know if ever i can ever fill up that vacant space, but I shall keep on trying and that's the only thing i can do.

I left my country two years back. Sometimes I feel, i made the right decision and sometimes i curse myself for going with that option. Dreams, hopes, aspiration and blah blah keeps a person moving forward and behind every decision taken there is one such gust of wind. Sometimes the landing is safe but most often, the landing is bizarre. But poor me, i haven't yet been able even to figure out my landing strip. The journey is very challenging and it has sucked out every calorie from me. Amidst all these turbulence, the only thing that keeps on nagging me is the fact that i haven't been able to keep my promises, i had made to someone before leaving the country. 

I know and i understand      Promises are worse than lies. Cause you make them hope. Hope for something that you're not sure you can give.   

Deep inside my heart, only i know how hard i have tried to live up to the promises i made. Sometimes i wonder, why is it so hard to live up to the expectation? Is it because we don't strive or is it because we don't care for the promises made or is it because we are not endowed with the chances we require?  I have failed to some extent to keep up the promises and i accept it regretfully; but the fact is i haven't given up and I shall never give it up.

With  this New Year, I look for better tomorrow, better moments, better health and a state of happiness for everyone.

Late update and meh..

          If leaving on a jet plane was exciting, laying bed ridden for more than two months was excruciating and agonizing. It was more disturbing when the dark clouds of fact prevailed over me time and again that I am far flung from my homeland, my country and my peeps. I had no one to turn to and I had no one to share and voice out my pain to. Life in foreign soil to me was more of a distressing and disconcerting than eventful and thrilling. I lay wide-awake on my bed day and night with just pain and dissatisfaction as my friend.

The first one-month of my stay was fit, fine and healthy one but the trouble started approaching me as the second month begin to make its way. I started developing acute pain in my abdomen out of nowhere. The pain began to shoot up more and more with each passing days. Even then, I did not miss my University and job hunt. I had a belief somewhere inside me that the pain would subside someday but all my conviction derailed when the pang of pain hit me more than before. I strolled with the pain till I could hold it.

The third month and I was in bed frisking with pain. The level of my endurance could no more resist the unbearable pain. I gave up finally and made my way to the hospital. The doctor made me go through different check up like endoscopy, ultrasound, blood test, x-ray etc. Finally the doctor came up with findings that I had redundant water stashed in my stomach and that my intestine was devoured by gastro instestinal problem.  I was prescribed different medicines and I had to live under strict food control. Each day I had to consume around 6 different capsules of drugs during daytime and two injections at night. I had lost around 13 kg of weight during these three months.

Three more months passed with the medicines. These days I am feeling more comfortable than before. I am working too and finally I am relaxed to some extent.

Life in foreign is actually tough, but it gets tougher when we are not sound in wind and limb. “ Bideshma rookhko hangama paisa falcha bhanthe tara, yeha ta hangama hoina jara nai ukhelda ne bhetna garo hune rahecha”.

    Anyway, my best wishes are with all those who are out of the country. Stay safe and healthy…


© ɱɐϩτα Ͼϵϔϼα™ 2011

Thank You for Loving Me..

           Actually my blog consist of writing only. But today, I wanna  use my power of being an administrator to this blog and publish a video that has so touched my heart over the time. Through this blog, I wanna dedicate this beautiful song to the one I love, to the one I wanna spend my rest of the life  with and to the one who knows how dearly I love her. THANK YOU for every best day.

 

(Lyrics)

It's hard for me to say the things
I want to say sometimes
There's no one here but you and me
And that broken old street light
Lock the doors
We'll leave the world outside
All I've got to give to you
Are these five words tonight

[Chorus:]
Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn't see
For parting my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me

I never knew I had a dream
Until that dream was you
When I look into your eyes
The sky's a different blue
Cross my heart
I wear no disguise
If I tried, you'd make believe
That you believed my lies

[Chorus:]
Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn't see
For parting my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me

You pick me up when I fall down
You ring the bell before they count me out
If I was drowning you would part the sea
And risk your own life to rescue me

[Solo]

Lock the doors
We'll leave the world outside
All I've got to give to you
Are these five words tonight

[Chorus:]
Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn't see
You parted my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me

When I couldn't fly
Oh, you gave me wings
You parted my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me 

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Love and Peace

Revealing myself in Seven Lines..

I am fully honored and so thankful to receive my first blogger award from my friend Balqis. Accepting nomination is quite an easy task as compared to the one, i am supposed to be doing after having nominated. Anyway, I have tried my best to open up seven random facts about me and I hope it would be quite a good read.....

1. I am an avid reader. I love to read during my free times. Any books, magazines, newspaper or even blog of my friends is what keeps my boredom at bay. But at times, i also love watching movies and i have a good collection of them too.

2.I sip lots of tea, cofee(whatever i can find). I can't write or think anything without a cuppa tea/coffee by my side. Morning,day or night- i love to sip it everytime i can find one.

3. I have a strong love inside me for kids. I love playing with them and i feel their babbling talks are too cute.

4. I have great thirst for literature. I try to read whatever i can find at my disposal.Some times i try on my own to create some pieces too, as I am greatly inspired by those who writes.

5. I wish to be loved and love back equally. My friends,my families and my relatives are my assets and i wish to treasure them forever.

6. I love to stay away from hypocrites,height( as i have severe fear against height) and politicians.

7.I wish to travel around the world( but that's a dream only), have my own publication house and big cruise.....

To cover up oneself in seven lines is really a difficult task. There errupts a fights in the mind quite often, whether this should be included or that should be. And finally when i think i am done, i feel this should be ommited and corrected.  but at last, I have finished the task assigned to me and i really feel great about that.

               Once again, Thanks Balqis.

"U" & "I" TOGETHER ❤

I peeped into the mirror,

It was just “I” before;

But today it’s “I” and “U” together.

❤ brewed in between “I” and “U”;

And it thus got captioned “I ❤ U”.

I walk, I stumble, I stand up,

And take a long stride again.

Gardened with new phase and new scenario;

Have, I been propelled to a new echelon;

Challenges a rife;

But adjustment is my priorities.

Stranded I’m with option;

That comprehends, “no looking back” now or forever.

It was just “I” before;

But today it’s “I” and “U” together.

Thousand miles for us to trot;

Nevertheless “U” and “I” are strong.

New hope, new day;

A completely new destiny.

It was just “I” before;

But today it’s “I” and “U” together.

Every hemisphere I dwell to,

Illumined I’m by magnet “U”.

Fragrance of life I see;

And mystic sound of life I hear;

Fervored  and  zealed I’m;

Shall it lead me to;

Love, togetherness, commitment and care.

It was just “I” before;

But today it’s “I” and “U” together.

Ferry “I” through every opportunity;

To warm nights and brighten the day.

Glowing prospects in the horizon;

Though dim may be the vision, now.

It was just “I” before;

But today it’s “I” and “U” together.

 © ɱɐϩτα Ͼϵϔϼα™ 2011

Ya Looked Wonderful Dat Night..

Hardly could I utter any words,

“You look wonderful tonight”;

Would have been too lame,

To have been owned and claimed;

Quite often, I did clear my throats,

But gulped down with each sparkling shots.

The night grew strong and tall;

Tried I to control;

Control and take care of her each submissive fall.

The ardent zeal,

Coupled with her tempting aroma,

Compelled me to get down and kneel;

Kneel on my feet;

Energized was I to tweet,

The song of her charm and glowing beauty.

The hands we held for long,

The moves we created along;

I still feel and smell of her so strong;

Her magical eye,

Got me high and high.

Time and again—I did clear my throats;

But gulped down with each sparkling shots.

The pompous crowd,

The wild glaring sound;

An arena of completely unknown facet,

The juxtaposition of thumping feet,

Lost in quest of amicable beat;

Crawling along, all were for the sweetest treat.

Lost I was in search of words;

Would that best personify her sorts.

If only I could;

I would have and should.

But since the time is gone,

And by now, I’m all alone.

I often do scream;

And fantasize her in my surreal dream,

O sweetest surreal dream.

ΜΔŞŦΔ Ć€ŘРΔĦ © 2011